Sunday, March 29, 2020

garage gym

random snippets of musings
1. i usually love poetry but the apocalyptic poetry felt... depressing for some reason. maybe the thing about this whole pandemic is that it's terrible beyond words. we are lucky to have enough n95 where we are... but some places arent. im blessed to be in this fight with a set of awesome colleagues and friends and bosses who love to teach and keep on teaching with online zoom classes.

2. crossfit has been the only thing keeping my sanity thru this new posting and crisis of faith where i suddenly realized the holes in my knowledge and my weaknesses. at first it was just a welcome respite to turn the brain off work for a bit, meet new people, get out of the work sleep work sleep cycle and dreaming of work all night too. then it became a bit more as i started to learn more about the crossfit champs, like rich froning, and how he approaches comps - doesnt mind the outcome, just does it for God. what an apt metaphor for this race we are running in this life. and how the crossfit athletes acknowledge that they have weaknesses and the only way is to target each weakness. i have discovered a lot of weaknesses i never knew i had, and i'm slowly buffering each one up, so i'm sure that whenever i become reg, with God's grace, i will be a much much better one. thirdly, i realized that something i sorely lack is situational awareness. it's just that, as i become used to an environment, my familarity with that environment and people, makes it easier for me to overcome that, and then i function just fine in that environment. however, somehow, having a lot of spatial new stuff in crossfit and physical stuff, makes me more aware of the environment... and just generally more physically adept and less blur. although i still look generally blur, it's slightly improving. haha. what physical psychomotor skills.... yes crossfit is the place to sort that out! anyway, crossfit has been a lifesaving thing these few months. im so glad i found this box and signed up for it semi-regularly. although now with this virus pandemic, i'm sort of self-isolating so i cant go for classes... until i dont know when, but its slightly mitigated by the fact that literally the whole world is is lockdown now and doing online home garage gym workouts.

3. i dont know what to say about this pandemic thingy that the whole world hasn't already said, but. with some luck, hope and faith, we'll get through this. that's all one can ever hope. we've been training for this all our lives and we can do it!!

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on a slightly brighter note, spending my off day netflixing sherlock

also have to
- do tox online thingy
- log pm temp
- watch online mass
- go for jog
- do crossfit home WOD
- do research
- watch a million ecg videos

looking forward to livestreaming the amal mattu ecg thingy coming up soon post fever shift!

Friday, March 6, 2020

my everything



When my hope is lost
And my strength is gone
I run to you, and you alone
When I can't get up and I can't go on
I run to you, and you alone
'Cause you're my light in the dark
And I sing with all of my heart
Hallelujah
My almighty God divine
Hallelujah
I am yours and you are mine
This is all I know I will say
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
You're my everything
When I'm plagued with pain
And filled with fear
I run to you, and you alone
When my days are few
And death is near
I run to you, and you alone
'Cause you're my light in the dark
And I sing with all of my heart
Hallelujah
My almighty God divine
Hallelujah
I am yours and you are mine
This is all I know I will say
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
When trouble comes and goes
And when the cold wind blows
I lift my hands up, I lift my hands up
When sorrow knocks me down
and you pick me off the ground
I lift my hands up, I lift my hands up
And I sing, Hallelujah
My almighty God divine
Hallelujah
I am yours, and you are mine
This is all I know I will say
Hallelujah
By the grace of God above
Hallelujah
Our shining light to shine above
This is all I know I will say
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
This is all I know I will say
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
You're my everything
Ohh ohh, you're my everything

Wednesday, March 4, 2020

strength

Do you ever feel weak, inept, unable to do what you want to do? Not strong physically, emotionally or spiritually?
If so, you are not the first person to feel that way.
Gideon was one of those people.
In Judges 6:12, an angel comes to Gideon and says “The Lord is with you, you mighty man of valor!”
Gideon probably looked around him to see who the angel was talking to!
Gideon definitely didn’t feel like a man of valor. In fact, in verse 15, he asks “How can I save Israel? I’m the smallest, weakest man in the smallest, weakest tribe.”
But God used Gideon and 300 men to defeat an army of their enemy, the Midianites.
In 1 Samuel 17:36, David told King Saul that he had killed both a lion and bear. If you’ve ever seen a lion close up and personal, it’s a frightening thing. The lion that approached David was obviously an obstacle. But David killed it.
God uses difficulties to show His great strength in us. Strength that we may not even be aware of.
It is through those difficulties, when we are besieged and feel surrounded, that His power shows more and His light shines brightest.
In 2 Corinthians 12:10, Paul said “That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses… in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
If we can do whatever He asks of us in our own strength, He’s not doing a miracle. His strength will not come through.
But if we look to Him and His strength, we will see what He will do through us.
The Lord will go before you, the God of Israel will be your rear guard. He is our strength! Isaiah 52:12
~allworship.com

Tuesday, March 3, 2020

our prayers are getting wiser

i dont think im getting any smarter, or pro-er, or less sucky at this life
but! the difference is! my prayers are getting wiser :)

this quote from the rich froning book really spoke to me.

"Those were different prayers from when I was in high school and college. Back then, I was telling God what I wanted from Him. Now, I’m asking God for the help I need to do what He wants me to."
~ rich froning

faith, family and fitness

ive discovered kindle for mac which opened up alot of possibilities! 
so far ive read station eleven (bleh pandemics), kirstin davidsdottirs's memoirs, and RICH FRONING's book

IT IS AWESOME

i couldnt have expected to have so many life changing epiphanies just from reading a crossfit book tbh

there are many quotable quotes, but this one really stuck with me "faith, family and fitness"
its amazing that the fittest guy on earth goes into competition thinking that, it doesnt matter what he places, God has a plan for him anyway

his number one goal was literally just to glorify God. and it might seem strange right, how to do that just by lifting weights right? but he TOTALLY DID IT. and he knew that, he could do it even if he won or not! 

felt very very inspired reading his book
now currently researching how to fly to cookeville to drop in to his gym crossfit mayhem hahahah

something that really inspires me when reading these crossfit memoirs is that, apart from the peaks of winning (that makes the books have a happy ending. haha. although some of the endings are - they won 3rd place not first. but they still find peace within themselves and thats most impt), it's when they fall from the rope - a physical rope, but representing the rope of life. when the rope gives u a viscious rope burn. when u hear the roaring in your ears that drowns out logic. how do u stand up from that, climb the rope again. again and again. and even after the time cap, pick yourself up, TRAIN WITH THE ROPE FOR ONE YEAR and then try again and finally conquer the rope

i need to learn that
best lesson i ever learnt
i am going to train with my metaphysical rope for one year
and i will CONQUER THE ROPE

notion

day off and then one week of holiday! have been really into notion reccently so just set up my notion dashboard since i have a day off to...