Thursday, May 23, 2019

my hope is in you

my hope is in you - aaron shust
I meet with You and my soul sings out
As your word throws doubt far away
I sing to You and my heart cries
"Holy! Hallelujah, Father, You're near!"
My hope is in You, Lord
All the day long, I won't be shaken by drought or storm
A peace that passes understanding is my song
And I sing my hope is in You, Lord
I wait for You and my soul finds rest
In my selfishness, You show me grace

I worship You and my heart cries "Glory
Hallelujah, Father, You're here!"
I will wait on You
You are my refuge
A peace that passes understanding is my song
And I sing my hope is in You, Lord
~

have been running and running nonstop for awhile now
only with God's grace
keep on running

its not like super easy or anything, but it is FUN
and what keeps running through my mind is that THANK YOU GOD FOR LEADING ME TO EMED. one of the best things in my whole life has been emed. i would have never ever imagined that i would be good at this but surprisingly (?) i am quite ok-ish at it, more than i would have expected for myself anyway. i dont know abt other people's expectations of me HAHA but i definitely surpassed my own expectations of this life already. 

sometimes i think that the trials and tributations that led up to this so far just made it all the more sweeter. like finding out that i got into residency in the middle of the night in edinburgh right after my part 2 exams. edinburgh, place of hot summers and cold winters, place of anatomy and arthurs seat runs, place of miracles. like a perfect full circle, God opening doors that i couldnt open in a place i once left, closing that door not-so-firmly

coming back to sg and being worried that i would have no friends, sneakin into an LT one year late, also a few days late into the new semester, but somehow ending up in a residency with like 40-50 friends

now running and running with projects and work and study

i have such an enormous amt of improvement to make *cough central lines*
but my hope is in u Lord


Sunday, May 5, 2019

you by the light/is the greatest find

two days off in a row yay! after working practically nonstop for like forever

anyway it has been fun having a student around. my latest student was really enjoyable to have around and i loved teaching stuff. so many proud moments like when a new mo came to ask how to do backslab and my student jumped up said "i know!!" and ran to teach him hahaha

things to do
- atls precourse quiz
- research - gonna drive to lib now
- church
- gym (???)

things i wanna do
- sleep
- paint
- draw
- eat yummy food

random other things
- collate feedback
- more research
- study

never stopped loving

never stopped loving - jeremy camp  You kept on calling my name Through all my darkness and haze Even when I had fell apart You held me ...