Wednesday, May 30, 2018

spring day

amazing cover of bts spring day by roy kim + yoon gun


___________
I miss you
When I say that
I miss you more
Even though I’m looking at your photo
I still miss you
Time is so cruel
I hate how things go between us
Now seeing each other for once is
So hard between us
It’s all winter here
Even in August, it’s all winter here
Time is gone by mind
Like a snowpiercer, I was left alone
I wanna hold your hand
And go to the other side of the earth
Wanna put an end this winter
How much do I have to long for you like snow piles up on the ground
Until the spring days come?
Friend

Like a tiny dust that floats in the air
Like a tiny dust
If the flying snow is me
I could've reached you
A little faster

Snowflakes are falling
And you are getting farther away
I miss you (I miss you)
I miss you (I miss you)
How much more do I have to wait?
How many more days do I have to stay up all nights?
Until I can see you? (until I can see you?)
Until I can meet you? (until I can meet you?)

Until this cold winter ends
And the spring comes again
And until the flowers bloom again
Please stay there a little longer
Please stay there

Is it you who changed?
(Is it you who changed?)
Or is it me?
(Or is it me?)
I hate even this moment that is passing by
I guess we are changed
Just like everyone you know

Yeah, I hate you
You left me
But I never stopped thinking about you
Not even a day
Honestly, I miss you
But now I’ll erase you
Because it hurts less than to blame you

I try to ease your pain
Like smoke, like white smoke
I say that I’m gonna erase you
But I can’t really let you go yet

Snowflakes are falling
And you are getting farther away
I miss you (I miss you)
I miss you (I miss you)
How much more do I have to wait?
How many more days do I have to stay up all nights?
Until I can see you? (until I can see you?)
Until I can meet you? (until I can meet you?)

You know it all
You’re my best friend
The sun will rise again
No darkness, no season
Can last forever

Seems like cherry blossoms are blooming
The winter is gone
I miss you (I miss you)
I miss you (I miss you)
If I wait a little longer
If I stay up all nights for a couple of more days
’ll go to meet you (I'll go there to meet you)
I’ll come to get you (I'll come to get you)

Until this cold winter ends
And the spring comes again
And until the flowers bloom again
Please stay there a little longer
Please stay there
__________

love everything about this song!!
how long do i have to wait
how many more sleepless nights do i have to spend

ans: THREE MORE WEEKS
Dear God, please help me survive three more weeks
then the sun will rise again, and You will teach me that no darkness, no season can last forever

plans for tomorrow
am: gym + research
pm: adoration + korean italki class
i dont know why it takes so long for me to feel human after each call. it's like a numbness that takes forever to erase.
last night was up at strange hours watching zdoggmd lol
and his tedmed talk on feeling like a zombie wearing a steth REALLY RESONATED WITH ME
but sadly as i stalk the corridors at 1am with my portable slit lamp... i dont even wear a steth LOL.
at least he has a steth filled with bacteria. i dont even remember when is the last time i took my steth out of my bag

~

ok. what doesn't kill me will make me stronger.
when we break, we become stronger at the broken places. provided it doesn't kill us first.
FEAR IS THE MIND KILLER

~
PS. Dear God. Sorry I keep having to send prayers up even when you have given me so many miracles. I would love to not have so many moments of desperation too. However, I pray with all my heart that my patients and me survive the remaining three weeks of this posting, including my last call which looks poised to be on the last day of the posting. I also hope that many years from now I retain the ability to know how to spot cells in the anterior chamber, a shallow anterior chamber, and papilloedema through the undilated disc, or these six months of pure torture would not quite have been worth it. Even though I only have three weeks more, I would also like to be better at gonioscopy and B scans.
Amen
- me out

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spring day

amazing cover of bts spring day by roy kim + yoon gun ___________ I miss you When I say that I miss you more Even though I’m looking ...