Thursday, September 28, 2017

sound of surviving

In my younger years
I found You beneath the steeple
Could hear You in the hymns

Then later on
I met You on a road, once winding
Seeking but not always finding
You still loved me later on

In the same small room
Staring at the life I've chosen
Hoping that the door's still open
To give my heart to You
In this same small room

You were in the water, when I came up clean instead
You're still in my story, when my tears fall on the dirt
You're there in the morning, wrapping grace around what hurts
You were in the questions, in the silence on the phone
You were paying cab fare, making sure I made it home
I believed in too far, I believed in my worst fear
But You were never moving closer, You were only always here
Don't have to be alone
You will always be my home

every year when september comes around i can't help but think of the song WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS

well september is ending sooN. ive applied for mopex, applied for residency

it's been EVENTFUL

i wont ever forget that september seven years ago when God worked my miracle
the miracle that i already thought the miracle had already happened but it still did

haha. God always saving me from myself :)

years come and years go but God is always good, He is always at the center of it all.
we fall in and out of phases and drift away but He is constantly there, waiting for us to come back, somehow, someday

after seven years and the future still looks hazy. but GUESS WHAT WORLD. after all that and i suceeded. i suceeded in never losing my God. world, you might have thrown all sorts of obstacles in my way, i might have given up a lot of things in the intervening few years (i felt a little remeniscent of paeds mockcode the other day after our mo simulation teaching was on paeds HAHA. i remembered we had a huge trauma simulation and we were literally all running around like headless chickens. it was sooo fun tho). but guess what, i really didn't lose my God. thank you God for granting that prayer, at the very least :) i appreciate it muchly

me out.
now off to sign up for my ED CONFERENCE!!!
what did i say, God is always goood :)

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