Sunday, February 19, 2017



We pray for blessings, we pray for peace,
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

beautiful song
what if trials of this life/ the hardest nights/ are your mercies in disguise

perhaps, just perhaps

spending my sunday off day doing frcem mcqs and pondering the mysteries of the lumbosacral plexus

the other day i was telling c my newfound obsessions of nepal/ trop med/ drs without borders and he was like - do you know what would be good prep/ training for all that? emed. HAHA. you're telling me!!

i think i've found a slightly better balance in life now. how to see a vaguely acceptable number of patients, be safe, and have my patients feel like i'm listening to them instead of hello bye. okay. i'm not beating any records or winning awards for most number of patients. neither am i on track to win best mo award, and i think the only way to get residency EVER, let alone this year, is if God suddenly decides to work yet another miracle for me. i'm not too sure about that to be honest as he has already worked MANY miracles for me (starting from getting into rg, getting into med, getting into med in sg, the last mopex posting). i guess you could say i am happy where i am right now. there will always be something else to strive for but sometimes you need to find the serenity in where you are right now. i'm happy just doing the right thing for my patients. and learning everyday what IS the right thing to do.

even if the healing doesnt come
and dreams are still undone
You are God, you are good
forever faithful
even if the healing doesn't come
Lord we know Your ways are not our ways
so we set our faith in who You are 

you say when i'm broken and cant carry on
carry on
when all my strength is gone
you're still holding on

trusting in God, that He knows what is best for me. 

meanwhile i will sit here doing frcem prep qns. HAHA. chillax sunday afternoons

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