22nd April: The Only Way
Jesus said, 'I am the way...; no one comes to the Father, but by me'. John 14:6
Our goal is important, but so is the route by which we get there. Jesus tells us that our goal is our Heavenly Father, and that Jesus is himself our Way. Throughout each day our journey continues, our destination an eternity of joy with God and an unclouded view of him. I'm not suggesting that we'll get there by the end of the day, but we can certainly get several steps nearer. And those steps are taken in Christ -- our WAY. We take the steps by faith -- ie knowing that he is with us, and keeping our eyes upon him, we follow his footsteps obediently. As we do this, the end and the means become one, so that we need only to concentrate on one thing -- staying with Jesus -- our WAY. He will take us to the Father -- no doubt about that. Our only worry is lest we wander off into our own way instead of his.
So we ask Jesus to keep us close to him today, and to whisper -- or shout if necessary (though he should not need to shout) -- a simple warning if at any moment we waver, or take a step off the road.
I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year -
'Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown'.
And he replied
'Go on into the darkness and put your hand into the hand of God,
That shall be to you better than light and safer than a way'.*
after nearly three months off the grid & doing the bare minimum life requires, i think it's time to run this race one last time. for whatever it's worth
on the off chance that this could have been what i'm supposed to do with my life after all. not just because it's become something that's familiar and a comfort zone (although i really thank God that this place has become a comfort zone for me, that in itself is really something to be grateful for!) considering how absolutely NOOB i was when i first stepped into the basement, and how now i can even quickly finish up my pts post shift and go and help out with m&rs to learn more, it's really lovely!
what i really should be doing:
1) practice my instrument for 1 hr daily
2) revise for examS
3) do my research. and aim to get my paper publishedd
4) gym erm... at least 3x per month (HAHA you would be amazed how rare this is)
5) pack the house. or rather unpack fully from the reccent move
6) claim all my transport claims from this month..
7) hunt down all the ingredients required to bake a cake
in order of importance. HAHA.
what i have been doing instead
- surviving shifts
- learning korean
- being thoroughly inspired by the drama golden time
- puffing breathless children. high fiving little kids. giving out sweets to random little children
- making it to church for the last 10 mins of mass (yay!)
ok, not all is lost huh