Saturday, September 27, 2014

choose to love

He never sleeps, He never slumbers
He's been awake at every hour
No tear catches Him by surprise
He's never lost, He never runs out
He never lives in the shadows of doubt
No fear catches Him by surprise
Put your hope in God
Put your hope, put your hope in God
His love is real, now nothing is impossible
'Cause nothing catches Him by surprise

So I’m gonna choose to reach out 
Choose to lay down 
All of the fear that I’ve been hiding 
Choose to be brave 
Though my heart’s afraid 

To be a part of Your Kingdom rising, oh 
God, I’m done running from 
The reason that You sent Your Son 
So I will choose to love 
Sometimes it's hard to keep believing in what you can't see
That everything happens for a reason even the worst life brings
If you're reaching for an answer and you don't know what to pray
Just open up the pages, let His Word be your strength

And hold on to the promises (hold tight)
Hold on to the promises (all right)

And all things work for the good of those who love God
Oh, if God is for us who can be against us
here i am having cold feet once again. i can run & run & sometimes i do dodge bullets. that was a lucky bullet i dodged the last time. this time??? who knows. 

last year i felt so sure during the epiphany that God wanted me to get into _____ and somehow use that to do His work. i felt so completely sure of it that i totally forget/ tried not to remember that i never get anything the usual non-circuitous route. so it's a bit not very convincing when i read my own words about part a, b... etc (and no that doesnt refer to mrcpch part a and b...). but i sometimes... cannot even survive the DAY. if not for my current SIP student, i would definitely not survive my current home block. no kidding. 

lets talk about a miracle, once during the epiphany, i was facing a huuge dilemna about whether to proceed with a project or not. and the answer was WAS, so i did. and that ended up in an amazing miracle & experience. totally the highlight of my ho yr. 

but anyway, whatever i choose, as long as i chose it for love, it's gonna be okay. there's only one choice i could have chose for fame/ fortune/prestige, and i bypassed that choice after last yr's epiphany. keep telling myself im gonna meet the impossible deadlines. 

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