24 Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.25 Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever.
1 corinthians 9:23-25
"they ran and strove to be foremost, who should get to the goal first and receive the prize, so should believers be emulous to outdo each other, to go before one another, in faith and holiness'
" as they ran in the way that was marked out for them, not turning to the right hand or the left, so should believers run in the way of salvation, which is Christ"
"The end of running is to obtain the prize, the incorruptible crown of eternal life; not that this is to be procured in a way of merit by running; for the best services of the saints have no merit in them, they are previously due to God, nor can they be profitable to him; and besides, are done by the assistance of his own grace and strength"
"nor is there any proportion between the best works of men, and this crown of glory, life, and righteousness"
"believers are to run on in their Christian race, that they may, and when they are come to the end of it they shall, as he that came foremost in the race did, stretch forth their hand, lay hold on, and receive the crown which the righteous Judge will give them"
actually, i think i have been mistaken.
all this is inconsequential, unlikely as it may seem
i asked God, where should i apply to. He didnt give me any definite answer. he told me that it doesn't matter.
this is the race i have to run: that no matter what happens in the future, whatever I do with this life, born out of God's promise, that may I do it for God. and as long as i do that, i will never regret, i will never go hungry and i will always know peace.
i'm just submitting everything to give myself the widest range of chances. because i don't know precisely what's going to happen, so i'm submitting everything. not to the system, but to God.