"Study to show thyself approved unto God, a workman than needeth not to be ashamed..." 2 Timothy 2:15
"Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God"
- Psalm 43:5
"When you go out to battle against your enemies, and see horses and chariots and people more numerous than you, do not be afraid of them; for the LORD your God is with you, who brought you up from the land of Egypt. So it shall be, when you are on the verge of battle, that the priest shall approach and speak to the people. And he shall say to them, 'Hear, O Israel: Today you are on the verge of battle with your enemies. Do not let your heart faint, do not be afraid, and do not tremble or be terrified because of them; 'for the LORD your God is He who goes with you, to fight for you against your enemies, to save you.'"
- Deuteronomy 20:1-4
you know, being scared is one thing, thats understandable. being so nervous you cant concentrate, jumping from one thing to another, not knowing what to do next, thats stupid, and unforgivable. but the upshot of it is that i mean i definitely have breadth, as opposed to spending 3 days studying murmurs. i did spend quite long studying murmurs though. LOL.
so here goes - to keep myself accountable - very difficult. i'm as jittery as if i drank ten cups of coffee. wha me?
tues after exam - watched lots of television to "decompress" YEAHH im just lazy. umm i managed to start studying aortic stenosis. aortic stenosis.... is an ESM. wow so smart
wed- i think i spent too much time on murmurs i wont rmb. whateveR. and then i finally figured out how to instruct people on using inhalers + spacers. SO MANY INHALERS. theres the MDI, the accuhaler (the ufo shaped one), the turbuhaler (the lipstick shaped one). and then u need to know how to use mdi + spacer. or mdi + spacer + facemask. FACEPALM. ok. i think i know it now. spent really long trawling around the internets for pretty cartoon pictures and i found them! jaackpot.
oh um i practiced respi, cv, neuro [cranial nerves, LL and UL. but i forgot to practice cerebellar whoops], and ortho - hip, knee, and hands
thurs - peds murmurs, advice for peds cardio conditions, read surg longcase accounts, colorectal cancer, and i WILL DO VARICOSE VEINS BEFORE I SLEEP. and also i will practice cervical spine + lumbar spine exams + grab someone to regurg the peds vaccinations + epilepsy + asthma counselling. note how everything is in the FUTURE tense even though its 10pm
fri - revise all of surg + gen med - neuro [like charcot marie tooth, parkinsons, blahblah]. memorize DA!!
will this be enough? WHO KNOWS
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