Thursday, September 30, 2010

i must document that today was a really happy day :):)

thank God for the hundreds of small things that make me me, im beginning to understand why i had to overcome so many trials to mould my character to be this way. for sending people to tell me that people like me for me and not cos they're just being nice for the sake of being nice. (well, i hope so!!) hahaha.

study looms over me, i cant rmb a thing. oh, duchenne's is x linked recessive. that's all i know! haha. just now i asked the guys "which is the thing with the B-2 microglobulin, is that the T cell receptor?" NO. PHAIL. it's the MHC (either class I or II, phail, i've forgotten!!) also have to listen to all the pharmaco drug lectures, what on earth is a quantal response?? i dont knowww.

chinmaya: i dont think eli is that kind of girl to gossip
ravi: that's because she doesn't know anyone! how to gossip?!

this amused me greatly

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Thursday, September 23, 2010

sigh, Life.

on my dear old laptop that was my best (inanimate) friend and source of entertaintment for the past two years, found some quotes i stored away (aswell as my crazy immuno notes)

i like this one:
When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.

can attest to that, 100% :)

listening to: 2pm - don't stop can't stop. ULTIMATE MOTIVATING SONG
it may be a rainy day but i'm happy. i think this has something to do with kaya waffles. (and company) & happy smses :)
for once, i'm doing the right thing. unequivocally.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

hahaha. i realised i haven't changed at ALL fundamentally. at most i've become a more kind person. which does have to account for something. but in all other respects, most unfortunately, i've retained aLL my bad habits.

i really wish it could be different, but hmmm i guess not, huh? nevermind, it's really not like i'm not used to this anyway. coping mechanisms 101. right up my alley :)

ps watching webcasts is like watching korean dramas. HAHA.
pps sending strange messages to people at 2am in the morning? not reccomended.
ppps two hours of teratogenesis and malformations = UGH. but finishing 20 hours of lectures in two weeks? A PERSONAL RECORD. note: most of this i actually havent studied before. at least the things you have to memorise i haven't studied before.

so true

Oh, you're going to laugh alright, eli, but not just at the funny clothes you wore, or by the unrecognized angels in your midst. But at how close you were when you thought yourself far, how much more strength you had when you thought yourself weak, and how easy life was when you thought it hard.

The Universe

i can't remember if i've mentioned this before, but i wanna thank kamin for being the coolest bollywood star i've ever met. or at least, the CLOSEST to bollywood stardom i'll get to meeting ;p heh. as everyone knows, I love bollywood, so knowing kamin has been nothing short of awesomeness. i'll remember him explaining his ideas for dances while playing and re-playing mast kalander/ shava shava nonstop, discussing ssc with him (i will never be able to do a critical analysis of a journal article without thinking of kamin and jensen. i am doomed la, how many times am i going to do that for the rest of my life!! hahah). i'll remember going through anatomy practicals with him (and all the guys copying from my book), walking to the gym with him, him walking us back all the time cos he stays next door, all the times he listened to all my long epics (ok, so i did inflict them on many people, but he always gave such sagely comments and never judged me. or at least he didnt show his judgement. LOL). i'll remember his general blurness and most of all his niceness and coolness and kamin-ness. :) AND for lending me his key to put stuff in when i moved house. i'll really miss you kamin.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

the funny thing about this all is how everything reminds me of something else.

also i met xt for gymming yesterday, was fun catching up :) i need to stop re-telling things, cos things always seem more exciting in the re-telling, but i can't help it!! haha you'd think i'd learnt my lesson by now but NO. also, gossiping whilst doing the thigh adduction thingy is so wronG coz firstly, it's like the o&g position, secondly, you do a lot more than you expected to do, thirdly, the next day your muscles will hurt superbly.

on my way back from somewhere sometime reccently, david called, unfortunately i couldnt hear half of anything he said. so our conversation went like this
d: i want to study in london!
me: how about liverpool or manchester! there's football!
d: oh, and also i'd like to go to walking with dinosaurs (random right???)
me, not hearing clearly: you dont have to study in london to go to buckingham palace!!
him: huh??
me: huh??

me: i'm going to get an iphone!
d: are you going to get an iphone4?
me: did you really just ask me what i want an iphone FOR?! huh, i just want an iphone cos i want an iphone la!..

the other day, i was eating a banana ball from the canteen. its uber yummy btw
nat: oh, that stall sells nice waffles
me: oh, really, how nice, what're the wafers made of?
nat: ... what's the waffle made of? whatever waffles are made of la...!

lol. i think i should stop listening to music on earphones, possibly.

Monday, September 20, 2010

being to timelessness as it's to time

i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any-lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

This Amazing Day - by e.e. cummings - always thought to myself that if my greatest wish came true, I would splash this poem everywhere. *splashes* ofcos I don't think I quite imagined it as mugging in the science library... hahah but the idea is there. "and for everything which is natural which is infinite which is yes"

Thursday, September 16, 2010

by John Koethe

Wallace Stevens is beyond fathoming, he is so strange; it
is as if he had a morbid secret he would rather perish than
disclose . . .
—Marrianne Moore to William Carlos Williams

Another day, which is usually how they come:
A cat at the foot of the bed, noncommittal
In its blankness of mind, with the morning light
Slowly filling the room, and fragmentary
Memories of last night's video and phone calls.
It is a feeling of sufficiency, one menaced
By the fear of some vague lack, of a simplicity
Of self, a self without a soul, the nagging fear
Of being someone to whom nothing ever happens.
Thus the fantasy of the narrative behind the story,
Of the half-concealed life that lies beneath
The ordinary one, made up of ordinary mornings
More alike in how they feel than what they say.
They seem like luxuries of consciousness,
Like second thoughts that complicate the time
One simply wastes. And why not? Mere being
Is supposed to be enough, without the intricate
Evasions of a mystery or offstage tragedy.
Evenings follow on the afternoons, lingering in
The living room and listening to the stereo
While Peggy Lee sings "Is That All There Is?"
Amid the morning papers and the usual
Ghosts keeping you company, but just for a while.
The true soul is the one that flickers in the eyes
Of an animal, like a cat that lifts its head and yawns
And looks at you, and then goes back to sleep.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Spent today falling asleep in a tutorial on coffee -_- klearly this place is cooler than they make it out to be. heh it was actually an epidemiology lesson and the tutor was really engaging.

it just takes some time
little girl you're in the middle of the ride
everything everything will be just fine
everything everything will be alright, alright
- jimmy eat world

Sunday, September 12, 2010


really. thank you guys

weiyang -who definitely reads this - thank you for being sucha good friend. ican tell that you're truly happy for me. thanks for everything man. the msn convos, the always being there, even the part where you encouraged me to go and work out. HAHA. that's the test of a great friend in my book ;p anyway. i will miss you la.

jensen - whenever i think back about edinburgh, i realize that it would have been totally different had we not been such good friends. there are so many memories it would take too long to list. swimming/ salsa/ cooking stuff/ you coming over to the flat/ cupcakes/ studying in the library/ you & may discussing singsoc stuff in my room lolol/ millions of msn chats/ coffee/ muffins/ starbucks/ deacon house/ kilimanjaro/ SKIP stuff (lol)/ the ssc projects we did together :) haha see clearly i could go on forever. thanks. you really are the best :):)

may - you've been a BRILL housemate and friend!! omg i cant even say how great it's been. all the girltalk in the kitchen, our cooking endeavours - ondeh ondeh with ash, pork meatballs HAHA. all the times when we come back and are too buzzed up to go sleep so we end up talking in the kitchen & always end up talking about the same stuff, the every-morning rush to lectures & each of us taking it in turns to be late hehe. the project at the western & having lunch tog everyday during summer! just absolutely everyything. the moving house bit was crazy, including the one-night stopover hehe so thank you so much for being a part of all my random nonsense heh. and listening to all my stuff, and just being so wacky and fun! and you defo made me go out more than ANYONE has ever done! thanks for making yr 2 in particular super fun for me :) ash too! thank you for being sucha understanding housemate! :):) & for always inspiring me to go gym hehe . and all the flat dinners we had together!
gill! thanks for all the listening ears and good cheer, and always encouraging me/ reminding me to go to mass! diana as well, and nadia! haha the edinburgh catholics! gill - thank you for being yourself - absolutely hilarious, wacky, offbeat, yet always cheerful and optimistic. it's really amazing & i really admire you for it. i was really looking forward to staying with you! you always make people around you smile & be happy so i hope you stay that way always!

nadia, jay: you guys always make things happening & fun! and HAHA nadia + weiyang makes for SUCH an interesting combination i must say. thank you for being so awesome & all the fantastic conversations we've had! jay: you were my one link to rj/ singapore when i first went. if i hadn't flown there with you, i wouldve been ten times more scared lol. thank you so much for making edinburgh an instantly familiar place & making it feel more like home to me :):)

ivy, jo - i am SO glad i joined your cell grp at the beginning of yr 1 with av & rae, or i wouldnt have had such wise and lovely seniors to always give me good counsel. everytime i had problems and went to you guys, it always felt so much better thereafter, i felt like i was more aligned with what God wants me to do and not just following my own whims and fancies and basically just going down wrong paths. i'm really really lucky to have had you guys guiding me in the right direction and learning from you guys during bible studies!
hianliang - thank you for all the help rendered - advice, car lifts to move my stuff so many times + actually helping me carry things up the 101 stairs. thank you for being sucha good cell leader and brother in Christ, for answering all my really random questions and smses, i know i bugged you a lot, haah i was really blur and stufff in yr 1 esp. thank you for the friendship and the chats over coffee? etc!

COLIN - i've only known you for a year but it actually feels like foreveR. looking back maybe i wish i wasn't so teasing and didnt kachao you so much, should have been nicer LOL. but then it may not have been so fun hanging out ya. thank you for making my year 2 so much more tolerable and fun. i seem to rmb studying in RIE A LOT with you, although actually i dont think it was thaaat much. it actually seems weird to go to the lib and not see rows of comps and see you (+/- glen) sitting there, or not to take the free shuttle bus back, or to not have someone wrestle and hijack my comp from me.

ikhur, rita, huihui, shiwen etc... although i didnt hang out with you guys that much, it was really fantastic to get to know you guys. thanks for always being such cheery/ pleasant people, and listening to alll my goings-on hehehe esp ikhur & rita. rita - paris trip + all the studying in yr one was vv fun! and all the academic family stuff, hahaha.


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