Monday, January 18, 2010

you're beautiful - without words

I shouldnt have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
Like I didnt see it, like I couldnt see it
I shouldnt have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away
I should have pretended I wasnt listening
Like I didnt hear it, like I couldnt hear it
I shouldnt have heard your love in the first place

Without a word you made me know love
Without a word you gave me love
Because you took a just a breath and ran away like this
Without a word love leaves me
Without a word love abandons me
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go min nam sings this in the most most heart-breaking fashion. and even more so is the part when she runs out, throwing down her headphones once the take is done, and tells shin- woo "dont touch me! i don't want anyone to touch me. i can't bear this anymore".

and when she's sitting on the park bench wishing she could just be invisible. AND THE BUS-RIDES on jeremy's bus!! reminds me of those carthartic hour-long bus rides home from school, in which i would tell myself to forget something/ be completely happy once the hour was up.

and of course jang geun suk is a great actor. nuff said.

you're beautiful has restored my faith in the world, in love, and in life :)

nah, i haven't magically become optimistic and blithely ignorant of inevitabilities; i doubt that can happen ever again. i'm doomed to cynicism, second guessing, and sugar-coated pessimism forever. but hey at least sixteen hours of my life were spent in real happiness. (actually, only 9 thus far, 7 more episodes to go). i'd best not finish watching it for awhile, to continue giving myself reason to live. LOL. nah just kidding, glee will come out in may...

and in case my life sounds rather drab now, i have this to say: WATCH YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL. AND GLEE. if you haven't already! also, serious dearth of access to books :( and anyway i've had enough drama for a bit, so i think that's okay. anyway, foodfest coming up, i really hope that works out well. ssc starting. etc etc. SO MUCH TO DO. this week is crazy. >< needed to charge my batteries...

thanks to k and j for being nice about ssc. really. you guys could have killed me in annoyance but instead you consoled me. oh yea, had the usual hilarious cell, and dinner with the guys the other day with a highly entertaining game of poker. in which i went bankrupt and... THEN WON that hand! i was really chillax coz it was only chips not money, so anyhow go and bet even though my cards werent that great... hahaah. AND THEN matthew used me to scare ben HMPHHH. lol so the money just kept running out. BUT then had super lucky hand. ahaha NO ONE suspected it, they thought i just went all in in great ignorance, people were like putting in hundreds?! yayy. fun times :)

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