Thursday, May 14, 2020

notion

day off and then one week of holiday!

have been really into notion reccently so just set up my notion dashboard since i have a day off today
haha full of stuff i love (excuse the crossfit obsession, i really wish i could buy those pretty rogue bumper plates...)
and omg em exits are so far away but since they keep saying "for exams..." "present exam style..." 
and omg ite which i didnt study for in year 1... must study for next years! 



have a million resolutions and things to do this AL
BUT hopefully i can get through at least half of these videos? 
well planning's half the start...

Monday, May 11, 2020

Happiness

Is a postnight workout in my minimakeshift home gym! 
With just 1 barbell and a skipping rope and my beloved wallball, had an amazing sweat sesh! 
18kg on the barbell for 1st set of c&j, 2nd set 15kg. Aiyah i shld have tried 18kg for 2nd set also..
150 single unders
Wallball 6kg! Only rx part of this whole workout...
Did it in 12mins45s! 
Its weird cos i actually workout more now that my gym publishes home wods and i can do more stuff with my newly accquired stockpile haha. Previously i only gymmed when i could make it to well, the gym or if my schedule fit the gym class. Now i can gym at 10pm in my own room!!

Ok now to do my 101 research and ebm and cme which is neverending...
And to dream of when i can get my 4th mini cex...

And dreaming of more wallball wods....

Sunday, April 19, 2020

divine mercy sunday

many yrs ago ? nov 2016, i remember going for a last min confession, something abt the year of divine mercy, and need to walk thru a holy door, and then after that go for confession. i just guai guai followed the plans, but i left the confession to the last day, AS USUAL last minute plans.

i remember being completely mindblown by that confession.
feeling that somehow, i had made it through the door of divine mercy JUST IN TIME.

i also cant rmb what exactly i was doing in my life at nov 2016 but i think i was floating around very confusedly dunno what to do with my life then

since then, i have figured out what to do with my life, and then embarked on what can only be best described as a crazy rollercoaster where in yr 1 i felt pretty pro (since if you are a pgy5 in r1, you will probably be much better than yourself if you were pgy1 doing the same stuff), until now in yr 2, having alot of STRESS AND EXPECTATIONS. and needed alot of central lines and chest tubes...

anyway not to go into details but there is alot of stress.
and lets not even go into the pandemic sweeping the world now. omg. most of the time its fine and i love my colleagues and the camaraderie, cos this is much of why i love emed and why i signed up for it. but sometimes fever shifts can feel a lil apocolyptic i must say. most of the time its ok personally. but for alot of pple in the world, it ISNT OK. which is shitty too.

anyway, so today is divine mercy sunday

life may sometimes be very very crappy, i have nO doubts about that
but today gives me a smidgen of hope. something like how easter gives a crack of sunlight in the middle of the darkness stretching out

that maybe, just maybe... we can make it through the door in time
if such is God's will


Saturday, April 11, 2020


honestly cant rmb if ive posted this before, but it is AWESOME

When the road is long And your strength is gone Remember I am just a prayer away When the way is hard And you are faint of heart Remember I am just a prayer away Hold fast, I'll guide you through the night And fear not, for I am by your side Listen through the rain And you can hear the angels say Help is on the way The moment you begin to pray When the thunders roar You don’t need to be afraid I’ll lead you through the storm So please remember when I say I'm with you always When you are worn out And you are let down Remember I am just a prayer away When every door is locked And you feel so lost Remember I am just a prayer away Hold fast, I'll guide you through the night And fear not, for I am by your side Listen through the rain And you can hear the angels say Help is on the way The moment you begin to pray When the thunders roar You don’t need to be afraid I’ll lead you through the storm So please remember when I say I'm with you always Come and walk with me Come and talk with me Soar on eagle’s wings Run and not be faint Listen through the rain And you can hear the angels say Help is on the way The moment you begin to pray When the thunders roar You don’t need to be afraid I’ll lead you through the storm So please remember when I say I'm with you always I'm with you always
~
sounds like the perfect song to drive home at 12midnight after a shift haha

on a random note, when this thingy is over and life is back to normal, i am totally going to go back to crossfit!! and take part in the open! ok since i cant do a pullup and handstand and muscle up it will be scaled++ but ONE CAN DREAM aiya just for fun only la
keep on going keep on going we can make it through

on winters and summers

chanced upon this somewhere in the depths of the internet - one of my fav poets from the days of rg and jc haha
so true, so true
spent my one off day in a week - livestreaming good friday mass, doing a home WOD and then listening to EMRAP and 2 amal mattu ecg weekly videos
still have TONS more to do but, good start and good break from the grind

good friday mass online was really appreciated too. so glad for computers and the internet man
flashbacks to previous lents and easter seasons also made me grateful for a lot of things. 
it seems like just yesterday i was sitting in the mrt live streaming the ash wednesday mass on youtube, lent is coming to an end so fast
and easter sunday will come soon! one of my fav days since forever. 
come quickly, easter sunday, with your promise of eternal hope, easter bunnies and easter eggs and chocolate and sunshine
come help us in this interminable string of fever-shifts that never seem to end
come soon, summer-days

Sunday, March 29, 2020

garage gym

random snippets of musings
1. i usually love poetry but the apocalyptic poetry felt... depressing for some reason. maybe the thing about this whole pandemic is that it's terrible beyond words. we are lucky to have enough n95 where we are... but some places arent. im blessed to be in this fight with a set of awesome colleagues and friends and bosses who love to teach and keep on teaching with online zoom classes.

2. crossfit has been the only thing keeping my sanity thru this new posting and crisis of faith where i suddenly realized the holes in my knowledge and my weaknesses. at first it was just a welcome respite to turn the brain off work for a bit, meet new people, get out of the work sleep work sleep cycle and dreaming of work all night too. then it became a bit more as i started to learn more about the crossfit champs, like rich froning, and how he approaches comps - doesnt mind the outcome, just does it for God. what an apt metaphor for this race we are running in this life. and how the crossfit athletes acknowledge that they have weaknesses and the only way is to target each weakness. i have discovered a lot of weaknesses i never knew i had, and i'm slowly buffering each one up, so i'm sure that whenever i become reg, with God's grace, i will be a much much better one. thirdly, i realized that something i sorely lack is situational awareness. it's just that, as i become used to an environment, my familarity with that environment and people, makes it easier for me to overcome that, and then i function just fine in that environment. however, somehow, having a lot of spatial new stuff in crossfit and physical stuff, makes me more aware of the environment... and just generally more physically adept and less blur. although i still look generally blur, it's slightly improving. haha. what physical psychomotor skills.... yes crossfit is the place to sort that out! anyway, crossfit has been a lifesaving thing these few months. im so glad i found this box and signed up for it semi-regularly. although now with this virus pandemic, i'm sort of self-isolating so i cant go for classes... until i dont know when, but its slightly mitigated by the fact that literally the whole world is is lockdown now and doing online home garage gym workouts.

3. i dont know what to say about this pandemic thingy that the whole world hasn't already said, but. with some luck, hope and faith, we'll get through this. that's all one can ever hope. we've been training for this all our lives and we can do it!!

~
on a slightly brighter note, spending my off day netflixing sherlock

also have to
- do tox online thingy
- log pm temp
- watch online mass
- go for jog
- do crossfit home WOD
- do research
- watch a million ecg videos

looking forward to livestreaming the amal mattu ecg thingy coming up soon post fever shift!

notion

day off and then one week of holiday! have been really into notion reccently so just set up my notion dashboard since i have a day off to...